Who knows where this post could go. All over the place, apparently.
I recently had one of those days where you just feel your ugly. You see how it tears at your heart, how it drives you into loneliness/anger/pride, how it affects your family…ugh. When these days are not in my face, I flee from them.
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
I have come to realize that the end of pregnancy brings about oh-so-many emotions in me. Many of them are crazy, many of them are dark, many of them are beautiful…but there is much for my mind to process. And I find I am fearful. I must learn day after day to run to Christ, who will take graciously relieve my burden and grant me His peace.
‘It is for freedom, it is for FREEDOM, He’s set us free!’
I have been so blessed by friends these past few weeks. Through meals being dropped off, through kiddos being picked up and being whisked away to a fun play date (who knew there was such a ministry in having an extra car seat?!), through a smoothie being dropped off at my front door during nap time(s), through friends just wanting to listen to how life was going - community has blessed us richly. I am storing these up in my heart, desperate to remember them, to remember how loved and cared for we felt. I have been humbled and blessed by feeling God’s arms around me and my family through these pourings out of simple generosity.